I decided to be silent and keep my words hidden

Blogging became a ritual thing for me... Now blogging feels dry~ if you get what I mean... Giving up wont be the resolution to change my point of view. I love blogging, but me in the stage of emotional breakdown seems blogging wont help...

World full of neglecting people deserves death and be forgotten. I shouldnt be starting over again but for sake of my existence, a fresh and new start might help but the bruises and cuts from the past wont fade.
I though alcohol is the answer but it just put me into a deep sleep and waking me up in the middle of the nigth and didn't let me go back to sleep that led me to turning on the computer and started blogging.

I tried blogging to give me the opportunity to know myself, the plan did work. I did learn things about myself. Leaving a hobby is going to be a hard thing. So I wont, but probably I will rarely post from now on. This is not a "good-bye" but therefore to cleanse my mind, and blog about good things.

There is nothing to worry about... Me being perfectly fine will be achieved soon.

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I didn't go to school today...

You know why? because my eye is still swelling and I dont want everyone to see it. while I am typing here I am watching a movie, its making me cry right now...TT___TT

Its a very sad story, but really sweet. Its been days-OFF for me since the day I had the surgery. My mum didnt made me do house chores and going out of the house to avoid stressing my eye.

Back to the movie...It just went pass the climax...and the story is slowly ending now but I dont know if there will be an anti-climax...=))

There is always something special with snow... I want snow too!!!

You know my eye is actually getting better now....Im so happy coz the lump is fading-and-fading now...

THE MOVIE just ended, It ended up happily, I hope the ending of my life will be as happy as the movie.

This weekend I watched:

The movie is a bit wierd, children under 13 years of age won't understand it.

and I watch this too....this one is better....

I dont wanna talk about it

I just had THE surgery...and I dont wanna talk about it....

for worried PEOPLE...

I am perfectly fine....

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Studying 'MUCH ADO ABOUT NOTHING' at the moment

Tomorrow is the day....and the day is tomorrow....I'll be under 'the knife' for the first time ever...

We just finished watching the movie Much ado about nothing we still need to finish the book. Its a really enjoyable play. Its appreciate-able. I enjoy Shakespeare choice of words...THEY're FANTASICALLY AMAZING.

We played Badminton today, we did round-robbin

our pointing was like this:

3- winner in the match
2- deuce in the match
1- Loser in the match


our score was like this

3|3|3|3|1|1|1|2 =  17

the highest got 23.

We started losing when we played against the chinese couple....from then on we started getting 1

ow-well....

FARE YOU WELL BELOVED READERS, and thou shalt read the next post of mine...

GO KOREA!!!!~ OLE-OLE-OLE-OLE-LE-LE!

I heard that they Korea won against Greece....WOOOOH~!

okay....FOR EVERYONE I've got bad news.

I am having a surgery on Friday, 3:35PM. I will hope for supporters and please people pray for me. I don't wanna die in such a young age. I had my check-up today and I am diagnosed for having EYE CHALAZION, and I am going to be excised to get rid of it. If you wanna know more info about chalazion go google it.

goodluck to me!!!

im already nervous though....


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A movie I recommend for asians~

I think westerners will not really understand the point of the story.....but its fun to watch though:
its a smart movie....

NO POSTS...NO LIFE...YES DEATH...

I haven't posted for a very long time

OKay so I'll make everything breif, short, but updating......


June 8: I seul's dream
She had this wierd dream and I was the main character and when a dream contains me its probably a wierd one....and her dream turned out really wierd...ow DUH!?

so her dream was.....

we were in our Japanese Class...and I was... full-on singing and dancing 'I go crazy because of you' infront of the whole class(why me?) and she said I had this really FUNNY "pretty" face(you know I just added pretty) that caused everyone cracking up....I dont know how it ended up, but who cares. She's more of a freak than me.

June 9: HISTORY PRESENTATION
I enjoyed the whole thing...the "koreans" did a really great job. I hope we got perfect marks coz we deserve it.(but thats not the whole story of it, somehow there's another side of it). Its really tempting to tell it to the world but the thing is I am trying to cover up the fragile identity of a friend. I can tell it to you in private....I really wanna spill it out because it's like thorns in me if I wont let those words out.

June 10: Badminton Competition
We are currently doing badminton for PE...we will do a round robbin to be graded. The first Practise of round robbin we didnt notice but I knew it afterwards that it was a competition between PHILIPPINES vs. CHINA, then the next round we ahd a fight against PHILIPPINES vs. KOREA, the koreans cheered for us by singing the "PILIPINO!PILIPINO" lyrics extract from teh song 'Bebot'. No one won on that fight because we got lost on tracked with the scores, but who cares I enjoyed it, I also cheered for them by singing the world cup cheer "Ole, ole, ole, ole-le-le-le" from the song 'We are the one'.

June 11: Free Haircut in school
I got a free fringe treaming from a korean hair expert, courtesy of Jaeyi. Im so thankful...If you just know how hard it was for me to see when my fringe got long. But because of her my life was saved. and IT was free I dont have to pay 25 bucks and bother to go to the hairdresser. hahay~

YESTERDAY:
I stayed up late watching movies which are:

a good one....and I know I sounded stupid in the middle of the night with a really low volume of the TV but I was laughing really loud. BUT there were many dry parts that they shoudl have not included...

AND that

Dont be confused...its a korean movie...and its a good one too!

so much for now....thats all for today~i guess...

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today...IS A DAY

Good DAY to everyone....

Its already THURSDAY....

and nothing very important happend today but today is a relief...because, I found out something depressing....but today its all good....

My friend (I can't mention her name), told me a secret about her life that only me and her other close friends know. It was the first time she shared a secret to me....does she consider me as one of her close friend now??? if she does its a great pleasure....

when she told me it, I am a good listener but never been a good adviser...so don't expect too much from me...

her story made me sad....i dont really know how to help...you can see from her face yesterday the sadness and teary eyes that made me more worried.

Another question for today:
Am I mean??? I know I am not....maybe sometimes but...maybe people just missed interpret me...

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Today and yesterday many people said that I am SOOOO narcissist...I think its getting worse and worse....what shall I do???

my sis, my mum, my friends....told me that Im so proud of myself and aside from that, they think that I am a perfectionist...Am I that inlove to myself and so selfish and judgeful towards people???



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To early for blogging....

30 minutes from now, I am going to take a shower and dress up, prepare lunch, eat breakfast......then go to school.

Yesterday was multi-cultural day.....not that extravagant...=)

OKay I am addicted to these songs right now...."염장송"- and "If you pretend"-Kim Jong Wook....grrrr They're stuck in my beautiful head.

I cant find any MP3 of 염장송......its taking me years to find one, aside from I cant read hangul, there's no MP3 of it.

Please help me people.....!!!

I have 10 minutes left to type everything I have to say....

My week started really good...nothing bad happend...welll Im happy about it.

You know whats taking me soo long to type....im still searching for 염장송 for any MP3 file of it....

5 minutes more....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cicsJz1kjfA

watch that.....

bye GTG...always BRB...heheh=)))


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